Who am I F’ing Kidding!?

Sometimes I don’t even know where to begin. The constant thoughts floating around in my head not being able to grasp just one idea or clear thought sometimes, but alas this is my problem. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies, especially as women. Some of us take on to this whole wonder woman concept thinking and hoping that we too can do any and everything while still looking good. Can we? Really though, is that even possible?
If you are a person that has followed the “Jessica Rochelle journey” you have come to realize one of many things about me. I Model. I love to write. I am an aspiring makeup artist; as well I aspire to act… just to name a few. Who am I fucking kidding? For me to begin to do all those things at one time (in which I was actively pursuing) was burning me out. I learned quickly a long time ago that if you have a focus be 100% on that focus so that you can meet that desired goal. The cause of my demise as to why I may have not progressed further as I would like is that each thing that I aspired to be was only given about 25% . In doing this I wasn’t able to personally be where I needed to be and build any goal I had for myself.
I have had come to terms and whole heartedly admit that I simply was doing way too much. I don’t know, perhaps in doing so it was like keeping up with the Jones’ to me, but for what? Who batman cares about all that? There is a crystal clear difference in multitasking, prioritizing and completely burning yourself out, and I my friends burnt myself out doing too much. The great news is I acknowledged that, stopped and corrected my actions. Shoot, better late than never. So after some major fine tuning of my life and intimate conversations with myself I am glad to say I am back on track!
So what’s the adjustment? My focus is not on modeling and I don’t believe it ever was. I have plenty other tangible talents that I have to offer the world that I am more passionate about ; and why not do what is your passion? Granted I still shoot on occasion but I’m not indulged in it like before. I’ve gone back and honed into my Air Force way of working/thinking smarter not harder in every sense of the term. Now if it doesn’t make money it doesn’t make sense and if it doesn’t make me happy, while the hell am I doing it anyway? So I continue on this journey… me, Jessica Rochelle… the…..let’s see what unfolds.

So, I am back in Georgia

Hello wonderful beautiful people. It has been a very long time hasn’t it? Well I am back and as always I feel like a chicken with its head cut off. I have been pretty busy.  So I moved back to Georgia and so far I love it. It is funny how things happen. I recall talking to one of my friends and saying that in 2007 when I was separating the service I had two choices of where to move, Jacksonville FL or here Atlanta Ga. Of course I choose Fl. It’s a good thing though because then I would have never met the friends in my life now that I am eternally grateful for. So, now that I am here I am still in school chasing my degree and believe it or not making my way back on to the modeling scene. I am excited and nervous at the same time, but this is something that I love to do so here we go…again

I hope to get on here and blog a lil more often than every 6 months, and I will def keep ya’ll up to date on projects I come across. Hope everyone has a blessed and beautiful day and chat with you later

I do this for ME

One thing that I realized is people are always trying to out do , show, prove or be something that they are not all for the approval for others. All of the is so insignifcant and irrelevant.  Whether it be writing, music , dancing or which ever venue you chose to travel, do it for yourself. Do it because YOU are passionate in the field you choose. Don’t ever do it to claim yours “better” or more worthy to others . The mistake people make sometimes is seeking validation or acknowledgement either. They waste sooo much time on this that sometimes they forget the passion or reason why they’ve done what they “desired” in the first place.

People waste too much time and energy focusing on what others think of them as if will change your self worth. This may sound selfish as hell, but anything you do, do it for YOU first. Who’s better to look out for your best interest other than yourself?